going far away.. so far away

Yes! Its ended, HCL 'O', without much fanfare. Henceforth, I'm going far away tonight.

Has War Ended?

realigned realities

Am I lucky, bloody lucky or what? 5.04 Numbers, I won't die. And 6 of them which I already know. Things will get exciting.

Sideline, I just scratched my mini again. Damn.

Paintings by the art people.


Poon hoarding Mingyi's board.


A distressed looking Haoyi.


Mun with a funny face again. BZ behind being impatient.


I consider myself brilliant to have captured this one. Kaleni must have been thinking to himself, 'My Days are Over.'

Last Encore

And so 4 years are ending. I honestly thought I did be a more accomplished person when I leave this building. But reality tells me I haven't. Maybe I have become a better person somewhat, just like everyone has. Now that .Reach has been taken down, I guess there will be very little avenues where these memories can be located at. So foolishly, I'm capturing some for myself and everyone down the road.

That's Jason with the guitar. Boey's in the background. Fine Monday morning!


From left: Vice Chairman Poon and Chairman Dong proposing a final final class chalet.


Now, Song doesn't seem impressed.


What a pity! I'm not talking about the class. See that window. Right from this part of the building, we can peek at the UWC people during their PE classes. They do lame stuff like touch rugby, and some rocket throwing nonsence. I don't think the view or angle will be available in the new building. Sigh.

in the story called life

That is what opportunity is about, its there but only some see it. I've decided, I'm not really hard core into certain things anymore, they just do not stand the test of time.

Its time for a change. Let's not make things just for the sake of looking cool, things that are dark and deep to impress. Then there are lessons learnt from 2 years ago, what that is bright but shallow just cannot work. Because you do it with others in mind, you are not reflecting yourself. That is why, you lack a proper foundation and true image called self and personality.

How then forth? Go right, go left. We split paths. That who is left takes the middle. Untrodden and wasted. It is a heavy burden, but the lions are roaring, they just go on living until their bodies are wasted.

MINAVS

That's the recovery project.

reality and truth are hard

Once again, after half a year, I have to admit that I'm on a terrible path to alienating myself. People I once knew around me, are mostly there for the benefit. Now that I have nothing to offer, they have left. Some sway with the wind, childishness of their hearts which I cannot alter externally.

Today, I had a terrible quarrel with someone whom I once thought was a friend. Thinking back, it was more of an ally that I looked for in him. The exact contents of the conflict are irrelevant. But if we get through this time, we may be better friends or allies. But this time, I have to go with my beliefs. What good are your beliefs when you are not true to yourself. Forgive me, I must do what I believe, even if it means forsaking what I have.

Quiet Moment

Keyboard and mouse are oily, not very enjoyable to interface for the time. So where's the vacuum cleaner and oil wipes. I spent the better part of the day editing video, for the ruggers, for the profit, for the hard disk. How practical indeed. Not to mention a lousier than previous year Karaoke competition that had only songs from one singer (JJ Lin is going down manz).

Been trying to persuade the dog to buy a Powerbook or Apple product in the least. That whatever Acer crap is made of cheap plastic and won't run Windows Vista next year anyway. So there, I've been wanting a iBook since 2001 but seems like that won't come true for a long time. Apple media event tonight, wonder what surprises there will be. New powerbook? My hard-disk is chock full to the brim, I'm already below my financial reserves limit, so no new hard-disk purchase option. I do have over 20 DVD+Rs and 40+ CD-Rs, sigh.

I want to be doing photography again, so much more peaceful in stills. But where's the money? This holidays, I'm committed to squeezing even more out of it than last year. There are plans I had for June that did not materialize, like that night rendevous. Mistakes I won't make again. Its time to dictate fate. Some things I did like to do:

1. Experiment with new food recipes (meat and veg varieties, sauces as well)
2. Conduct not 1, but 2 night rendevous photo shoots with group of 5
3. Read at least 1 book (I might ask Karan some recommendations)
4. Watch Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire, eat ramen afterwards
5. Go somewhere above 1500m in elevation where the air is fresh
6. Get a really big monitor
7. Script 3 stories
8. Drawings?

Clarification

I hate it when people do something just because its the trend. It means only one thing, they have got no brains to think. Stupid herd syndrome, but that's how we can make money out of them. SO Please do something because you feel like it and its right.

flying too fast

Its been 2 days since the road ended and we were flung of the cliff into a wide paradise. Didn't mention that Hachi looked like a clown after he dabbed on some water on his hair. He momentarily became the subject everyone's phone cams.

So what about yesterday & today, I can't say I have been pleased with the progress. Yesterday, I had to go renew some documents. Met up with jeffbag and co at the CPL event afterwards. Can't say it was up to expectation at all. Tentage area was so small and so little booths there. And this is an international event?! There was this Starhub ladder climbing game. The darn ladder has a pivot, so it will rotate the moment you climb on, wish I had a cam then. And the prize at stake was this Dlink wireless USB adapter, which was the same prize I was supposed to collect that day but didn't bother. Sigh. Our company took off for dinner afterwards. Had a great time eating a Subway sandwich within BK since I didn't like the long queues at BK. Plus I was brazenly eating under the signage that said no outside foods allowed, l33t. Bought afterwards, got rather pissed when I checked out the DVD. The footage wasn't exactly clearly cut, could see some analog edges. That was until I did some experimenting and found that PowerDVD actually cheats by upping saturation and stuff.

Today, just cleaned out my room this afternoon. Lots of papers and books, they will be in the bin after this month I guess. Been trying some bids for a dual P3 Epox system, but the price the seller is setting is so low that I wonder if its reliable at all.

反思

I guess Bill Pill was right when he said that the holiday begun last Tuesday. Well, this journey will end tomorrow. Its a time of transition and happenings, many events, most sad painful and memorable have been occuring these days. Its just the trend for this time of the year. Whatever doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. But have I really grown? No ideaz.

Today also marks a change of faith for this blog.

7.07

Makes a good LOL.

Interlude

Who said you could stop? It hasn't ended yet, its not done yet. Fight on, fight the drag, hold the resistence. Throttle past the storm and you will see the horizon. But not before this is all done with.

Creon

Deaths had been happening within the week. First, it had been the Chemistry paper found pinned on the board in the classroom, with red marks scribbled all over it. Then they found the Chemistry teacher in the lab, laying limp over the table. He was dead and no good. A beaker laid shattered behind him, the only mark of a commotion here hours ago. Everyone thought he had went through his head and committed suicide. Family or personal problems? He had none which showed up at all. The only immediate thing that was made known: he had downed a whole litre of HCl. And now, laying in a pool of partially reacted acid, he was but a mess of his own devices, chemicals.

And then just this morning, a Physics paper was found torn and tattered under the table of the Physics representative. The same red scrawlings were all over it. It was in a state that I swear only someone filled to the brim with hate could have performed the deed. Of great interest was the broken diagram of an electrical circuit on the last page of the violated paper. The culprit had left it free of scrawlings, only a big red circle marking surrounded the diagram. True enough, they found the Physics teacher shocked to his death by high voltages in his cubicle. And that explained the blackout this morning which happened amidst the year-end papers.

Deux

It was 2 years after the fateful 9/11 incident. Then, Bali and Madrid were struck, signalling no end to it all. Soon after, in 2003, they struck at Petaling Jaya in KL and eventually City Hall in Singapore. The culprit is amidst us not.

Wild story.

Yesterday & Today

Yesterday I dared to struggle.
Today I dare to win.
~Bernadatte Devlin